Weight Update for May 22

As I mentioned last time, I've had a rough couple of weeks.  My car is unexpectedly finished and needs to be scrapped, so I needed to deal with that, and all the grief that came along with it.  I'm the kind of person who keeps the same vehicle forever, which inevitably leads to getting emotionally attached to it.  

But what I didn't realize about myself is that when I'm sad like this, I start eating more.  This usually manifested itself as unhealthy snacking at the end of the day.  I was craving chips and stuff, and didn't remotely care that it wasn't good for me (and wouldn't make me feel better).  I also found it harder to stop eating. Like I would measure out a snack and immediately want more.  Or even at dinner, I would eat what I'd set out, and immediately want to keep eating (and usually on foods that were more snack-like).

The snacking seemed to go along with a lack of energy: I just didn't care to be doing stuff. I spent a lot of time sitting on my couch watching Youtube videos, even on days when I said to myself I was going to do yoga or something.  I didn't do anything active unless I was walking to a destination like work.  I knew, deep down, that I would feel better if I did something.  But I just didn't care.

That was of course compounded by my period starting a few days early.  I naturally have low energy at the beginning and don't want to do much.

Thankfully, everything has started to change over the last few days: I'm feeling overall more engaged and wanting to be more healthy again.  I'm also thankful that my fridge and home has mostly healthy snacks. I was still eating tofu, nuts, and apples (all cholesterol-friendly foods) in the middle of all this.

So here's where I'm currently at, weight-wise:

weight: 214.2 lbs
fat percentage: 48.0%
hydration: 35.7%
muscle: 25.5%
bone: 11.0%
cal: 2345

And now it's time to get back on track, being healthier (and working towards a healthier weight for my frame!)

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I would just like to add, that it is okay to go through these periods of low energy, sadness, and grief.  Life isn't always happy, and you will get through it, however you need to cope.  For myself, I just need to be aware that this happens, that I will not want to do much or eat healthily during such periods, and I need to keep lots of healthy snacks on hand for myself. Particularly easy ones that don't require much thought, like baby carrots or pea pods.  I probably won't have the energy to make muffins (but if I do, that's great).

And please do not hesitate to reach out to someone if you need help during times of sadness and grief, especially if you are suffering through depression or anxiety.  Talk to your doctor, or reach out through one of the many online counselling sites that are available.  If you are in crisis, please phone a crisis helpline or go to your local hospital.