Real Talk :/

While I know it was right before my period (so that's not ideal), my weight was the highest it's ever been since I've been tracking it (232lbs), as is my fat percentage (57.2). Going hand in hand with that, my muscle percentage is also the lowest it's been (21%). None of this is good.

I also feel honestly like garbage. I'm tired. All the time. I'm stressed. I have no energy. I'm constantly hungry (because I'm stressed and tired, no doubt). I can't keep living like this. :(

So I watched a Yogabody Masterclass I had purchased awhile ago about weight loss yesterday. And in that, Lucas, the founder of Yogabody, said something that really struck a chord with me: that energy balance is our ultimate goal (with weight loss and being our best). And that really got me thinking about how I've been feeling lately - maybe I do need to focus on rebalancing my energy?

That Masterclass also went into the main reasons why we're eating all the time: we're hungry (primarily), for entertainment, for nutrition, and for emotions. Curbing our hunger can go a long way towards curbing our eating, and can give us the space to understand other things that are going on (such as our emotions).

So this has given me a lot to think about as I start to formulate a goal for the next few months. Whatever I decide to do, I need to make sure it's focusing on bringing my weight and fat percentage down and my energy levels and muscle percentage up!

2024 Goal 2 Review

For April and May, my goal was to focus on healing my back. And I've honestly done alright on that front! Though I didn't really follow the plan I set for myself, at my last chiropractor appointment, I was told to come back in a month! So hurray, I succeeded!

For this month's goal, I planned to: do yoga for my back once a week minimum, choose healthier choices while eating out, and read a book on back pain. At the start of the two month period, I wasn't consistently doing the yoga for my back. But I've found a time and day that is working for me, and have successfully done the workout over the last three weeks. :)  In terms of eating out, I feel like I didn't eat out much over the last few months, so that was great. I don't think I chose healthier choices though when I actually did eat out. 

The book was an interesting point of this whole plan. I made it about halfway through one book which was really in depth and interesting in terms of what can cause backpain. But I lost interest as I went because it was talking about things that are clearly not going on with my back; I unfortunately stopped reading it just before it started to talk about different solutions. I also flipped through a second book on healing back pain through yoga. Unfortunately I found that book a little bit weird (the author used lots of weird statements to better get you to understand what she wanted you to do, but I found them confusing and distracting). I thought that book had videos to go along with the yoga routines, but unfortunately I couldn't find them online. But that's okay - I'll just stick to the workout I like to use, or look for different ones on YouTube if needed.

What actually made the biggest difference though, in my opinion, was something I didn't actually plan for: attempting to fix how I sleep. I saw a random ad for an alignment pillow for side sleepers, and, after thinking about it for a few days, decided to give it a try. I started sleeping with a pillow between my legs while I waited for the alignment pillow to arrive in an attempt to help. And honestly, it's made a big difference! I don't use the pillow all the time, especially now that I don't seem to be on my side quite as much as I was before using pillows to sleep (I'm on my back a little more now, kind of sleeping between my back and my side). I've found that since that time, my back isn't as bad as it used to be! I still have to be careful to not do too much (I was digging something out of the garden and started to feel my pain spot flaring up a bit), but overall this has been a game-changer for me!

So yeah. My plan didn't work very well for me, but I still got to what I was hoping for in these last two months! Hopefully I can keep up this momentum and heal my back more. :)

Some May Weight Updates

 Just some quick weight updates for May:

May 13:

weight: 230.4
fat percentage: 53.9
hydration: 31.6
muscle: 22.6
bone: 10.5
cal: 2413

May 20:

weight: 230.4
fat percentage: 56.5
hydration: 29.9
muscle: 21.4
bone: 10.5
cal: 2413

May 27:

weight: 232.0
fat percentage: 57.2
hydration: 29.4
muscle: 21.0
bone: 10.5
cal: 2423

As you can see, things are not going well. I don't feel great, my weight and fat percentages are too high, and my muscle mass is far too low. :(